Mental

I was diagnosed with depression about 26 years ago. Thankfully I received professional help and learned ways to work through it. (Most of the time anyway!) One thing I experience is the feeling of "not being in the real world" .... kinda like I'm here, but I'm not, and I can seem normal to others, but I don't feel normal.... Well, that's how I feel today. It's really hard to explain how it feels, but, I feel like everything is passing me by, time is going too fast, I can't go places and face people, I have no energy and only want to sleep, I feel spacey in my head and I'm on the outside looking in to everything going on around me. It makes no sense to normal people, but to those that are mentally ill like me.... :) they know what I'm talking about! I'm not always mental, but I definatly am today! I feel like I've lost the whole day today! After work I managed to go for a walk with Bryce and our mutts. From that point on......I took a nap and its been straight downhill from there. So, I'm going to battle back and think of the positives I have in my life today! Here goes.... I am married to the best man ever! We are all alive and healthy! I didnt have to cook dinner, Bret brought Chinese food home. I've stayed under my caloric budget, I can go to bed early if I choose to, I have the Gospel in my life, Nick is going on a mission, my family is happy, we have good jobs, we live in a beautiful area, I have a home, I am loved, I have a great family, (including extended family), I have great friends and I don't drive a van! Lol, some vans arent that bad... really. When I was growing up and would have a bad day, my mom would say to me, " remember, tomorrow is a new day" , and she was right, the next day was almost always better! Well, on that happy note, this mental case is going to take a sleeping pill and go to bed and hope for a better tomorrow! :)