HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAVID!!!

Gosh! I got quite a response to my mental post! Thanks so much to all of you! Apparently there are alot of us mentals around! :) The thing is, that was just sort of a....spacey, no motivation want to sleep constantly, can't really function day ...not one of my really sad days, which I get every once in awhile too. When I get both together its baaaaad! But, fortunately I've kinda learned how to avoid that with exercise and by literally forcing myself to keep busy , whether its with cleaning, or reading, or writing blogs and emails, cleaning out a cupboard, going for a walk, brushing my horses .....just anything to keep my brain occupied! It's not easy!!!! The best help I had used to be my brother David. I used to call him when I got really bad, because he had the same kind of depression , and we would talk for hours about stuff, and likewise, he would call me. The minute I would hear his voice when he'd call I could tell if he was depressed,and if he was, I would talk with him for hours. I miss that....We just understood each other and our giant black hole. (Thats what we called it.) He was such a good brother to me. It always helped us both feel better to know we weren't the only crazies in the world! I miss him so much. Today would have been his 52nd birthday. Happy Birthday Bro.... I love you forever! :) Anyway, thanks so much again to Kristin and Kristin and Jessica and Nikki and Darlene. I love you guys! Thanks for your notes on here. My mom was right, the next day was better , as is today! The only thing wrong with today is that I'm damn hungry! I've eaten and it doesnt matter! I think I'm headed into my pms week of constant hunger!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh it just kills me! YES , I ate TWO pieces of pizza for lunch! NO , I should'nt have and YES I'm craving sweets like no tomorrow! AAAAAAHHHHH!!!! Stupid chub club!