Miscellaneous

Miscellaneous

We finally had Nicks Eagle Court of Honor... (a year late!) He really didn't want one, but now that its over he's happy we did and so am I! He built food shelving for the armoury in Logan for his eagle project. Now the next big thing for Nick is his farewell which is this Sunday. Ahhh! I'm nervous for him, and plenty stressed out about the dinner afterward! I'm not a great hostess... I feel really inadequate, but oh well! Kramer came back from Australia on the 11Th and went to the lake with us the following weekend. We spent four days there and had a really great time, even though the weather wasn't that great! We had foot races, put puzzles together, tubed, went to Cafe Sabor for dinner, watched movies, played xbox, shopped, slept, went to Bear Lake West for a breakfast buffet, and watched lightening striking over the lake at night. So fun! Benny started school last Thursday. He has a really tough schedule this year but he's ok with it. He is taking mostly AP and college courses. Yikes! If its too tough this trimester then he will lighten it up for the rest of the year. We have a busy week with finishing up the missionary shopping, Alisons b-day Wednesday and preparing for the farewell. I sure hope everything goes well!

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Battles

So I have a great life and Im happy......... but ............ alot of days are battles for me. This week.......battles. It all depends on my depression level. I work really hard at keeping my head up, refocusing my mind, counting my blessings, keeping myself busy, and refusing to let it control me.... but every so often it takes over. Depression is a strange mental illness. I wonder if a person can ever out grow it? :) Ha! Just wishful thinking! Earlier today as I was driving I couldnt control my tears and I tried to hide from other drivers... I was embarrassed...now, how weird is that! As if anyone would even notice! Weird weird. I just didnt want anyone to know I guess, even strangers. Ive talked about my depression before in an earlier blog, I dont remember what I wrote, nor do I care.... I dont want to look it up and make sure Im not repeating myself.... I just know that sometimes writing about it helps... So , welcome to a brief glimpse into my mind...As I was driving along crying off and on, I thought, I should call this person or that person and talk and I will feel better, then , no... I cant talk to anyone I dont have the energy, then I thought, I should go water my flowers because I love my flowers, that should help me feel better, then , no, I dont want to... I should go gather Bret and the boys and go to a movie that will make me feel better, no, I might see someone I know and I cant talk to people right now, I might cry...what I really should do is go read my scriptures, for sure that will make me feel better, ...no.. I dont have the energy, what I really want, is to take a sleeping pill, and sleep till tomorrow..and hope for a better day. So, there you go, thats a peek into about one full minute repeated over and over in my mind when Im not well. Instead of taking a sleeping pill I came home , fixed dinner, watched 'So you think you can dance'. (What a great show, I love it!) I guess I can go to bed now without taking the sleeping pill and see what tomorrow brings. Im planning on having a great day! :)

OUCH!

OHHHHHH IM STILL SOOOO SORE!!!! I cant believe how many muscles it takes to ride a tube one time half-way around Hryum Dam! I hurt eveywhere! LOL!

WIPEOUTS!!

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Hyrum Dam

I realize that my posts are all about boating lately, but ....that's what we've been doing! Besides, I have some great photos and the video to post! I was babysitting baby David for a few hours and so he went boating with us. He was such a good boy, and as you can see my Bryce LOVES him! Well, we all do, but Bryce hogs him! We were there for seven hours! We had pizza delivered for lunch and had a picnic on the boat. I rode in the mega bowl tube with Lindsey Riggs and we had a blast! We laughed our butts off! SO FUN! I'm brave to post a picture of us! I'm so sore today though that I can hardly move! OUCH OUCH OUCH! Amber was such a brave girl to get in the water! She even went for tiny little tube ride! That takes courage when you dont know how to swim!